Quarter Life CRISIS

Oh my God!!!

I can’t believe I am having this moment right know. It’s 11 am, I’m at the middle of my work, but I am breaking down (on the inside, emotionally).

It’s just that there is so much happening in my life right now and I so overwhelmed. I think I’m gonna cry.

Okay. Chill girl.

See, I’m already/only 25 but I honestly don’t know where my life is leading.

I want to live alone but money’s been tight lately.

I have pending applications abroad.

I just got off from a “relationship”.

I don’t know if I am already dating someone or we’re just “cool”.

I think someone also wants to date me but i can’t decide because I am not sure if I am already dating someone.

I don’t know what I’m saving for.

I want to travel but I’m too tired.

I have so many friends sometimes it’s hard to manage.

I am not sure who my friends are and why I am dealing this alone if I have so many friends.

And, I’ve had way too much coffee.

T_T

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Switching jobs

I’ve quit my job as an external auditor for one of the big four auditing firms.

It was sad. All this time I thought that when i finally clicked that button that would send my tender of resignation I would feel so happy that there would be little dancing puppies in my head. But no, all I felt was “meh”. Nothing.

No, don’t get the wrong idea, I have no regrets doing it. I am just disappointed that I didn’t get the response I expected from myself (what?).

Well anyway, maybe I didn’t hate my job as much as I thought. I loved it actually, but we all know that there is a kind of love that is slowly killing you and you don’t know it.

So I looked for another job and I found one at an international non-profit organization. It felt just right and so mature that I am already making big decisions for my life like switching jobs (where did the years go?). I am really hoping that this will be long term for me.